Mariam felt sad at her failures. She felt desolate and worthless.
Rabbi Jesus told her, "That is the state where you are too harsh on yourself."
Lord Jesus told us to "Love your neighbor as yourself." (Matthew 22:39). If we practise self-hatred, how can we ever love others as the Savior did? You can only love another as much as you love yourself.
You are beautiful. If there are parts of yourself which have been hurt, corrupted, or are no longer beautiful, turn to Jesus. Repent, ask pardon, receive grace. If possible, go to confession and receive the absolution. And then, try again.
We are an ongoing work of holiness until the work Jesus has begun in us is completed, and we become saints.
Don't be too hard on yourself: we were made from the sand of the earth, and God never forgets that. Yet we carry the Divine spark within us, the Image and Likeness of God.
Love yourself. Respect your successes. Chalk your failures down to experience. Repent your sin. Ask pardon when you have transgressed. Receive God's Grace. Be at peace when you receive God's forgiveness.
Be gentle on yourself. Be gentle to the world around you. Respect others, and all life which shares this planet with you. Realize there is something beautiful in us all.
All this will help us not to indulge in over self-criticism.
If you wish for peace from repentance, perhaps you may find comfort at the following Chapel of Repentance,
https://churchinterfaith.blogspot.com/2017/03/prayer-chapel-of-repentance.html
